February 4, 2010

It’s been a while since I wrote in the blog. I am coming out a tough time. Yes the news is great and the road to recovery is very positive, so why do I feel like crap. The last while has been perhaps some of the toughest times.

I still cannot eat anything solid and careful with most other things. My mouth is dryer than ever, making breathing and eating very difficult. I am told it is just part of the process and dealing with the scaring. I also developed a bump on the side of my head (which we are monitoring). They believe it is not serious and a result of many things.

I am also very sore physically as my body structure is still readjusting and now there is pain in my hips and shoulders as well as my neck.

I am also experiencing some hormonal changes (at least that is what we think it is) I just went for some blood test. I wake up 5 or more times a night soaked from head to toe. It does not do a lot for my energy level either. My temperature during the day is usually on the side of being cold but something changes throughout the night, yet I am not boiling. I have pulled out some herbs again, crushing them to swallow.

So that is on the physical side and I am managing to keep my spirits high and have had the opportunity to go out with a couple of girlfriends and share good books, movies and talks.

There are moments where I do get discourage but try not to stay there too long. Our family has seen quite a few movies, Richard and I have made it a point to attempt to go out Tuesdays while Julian is at cadets and then on Sunday we all went to see Avatar. Some great talent out there for us, thank you.

Recently I was out with my girlfriend Sandra to go bra hunting. I say that because in the past it was a hunt. Well the gift as we walked into the store was the bra rep was there and helped fit me and came up with great suggestions. I am now two sizes and a number of inches smaller. I feel like I am in my teens again. (that is not a bad thing – I am actually enjoying that part). Now to get my energy level back as a teen would be cool.

Hold that thought with me and we could enjoy some great fun!